Within life there are problems. There are trials to be concord, decisions to be made, people to learn from, mistakes to make. I find that I make many of the same mistakes, or atleast very similar to ones I have already made. I am trying to rethink things, such as what is important not only for my life but for me, emotionally, personally. Whether or not I know just as much as a policy maker, or am just as beautiful as a fashion model, is not relevent. What matters is, regardless of the thoughts within me, developed by an outside source or not, i am happy. It doth not matter how I dress but why I am dressing. To make me happy. It does not matter where I go to college, so long as I am doing what I want to do for the rest of my life. Perhaps I should rephrase. It does matter, I just don't care about others negativity no matter how close you are to me. If one present their concerns in a decent matter, than I will apply a decent amount of time to mull over the quarry. If an opinion is thrown at me just as carelessly and harshly, well than you can go fly a kite.
In the end I do love my life and the people in it. Some just irritate me more than others. I do not care to put in energy and thought into something that is benefit-less. I want to enlighten myself. And if I think I can do that through spending, or time wasting than let me be, because I am obviously doing it for a reason. Even if it is "vanity" or "superficial" it makes me happy. It blinds me from the self doubt that wallows within me and eats at the marrow of my bones, making me weak, to weak to want to go on.
I entirely love everyone, at least I think I do, so do not tell me what I do do and do not do. I know my thoughts, I try my best and I hope for much. I pray for all, and even in regards to my enemies I feel great guilt trying to muster the courage to wish them ill. In this case I simply pray for understanding. I want love and life, I want experience and knowledge. That most certainly is not to say that I do not have my fair share. Do not undermine what people are capable of because you will not win in your prideful endeavors or ill wishes. Simply do as He did and love. Love those whom try and don't always succeed in the ways they wish. Love those whom are loud, because they rejoice in the ability to voice their spirits. Love those with strong will, for they wish to be understood, and if you will; accepted. Love even the most desperate, for they are searching in any way possible for what we search to in the most difficult of hiding spots.
Simply live, and you will find happiness in small things. Simply try and you will gain so much more than just experience. Simply care, because so many don't and it takes so much to have passion for something and make it your own.
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