What is, what should be, what I will..

Within life there are problems. There are trials  to be concord, decisions to be made, people to learn from, mistakes to make. I find that I make many of the same mistakes, or atleast very similar to ones I have already made. I am trying to rethink things, such as what is important not only for my life but for me, emotionally, personally. Whether or not I know just as much as a policy maker, or am just as beautiful as a fashion model, is not relevent. What matters is, regardless of the thoughts within me, developed by an outside source or not, i am happy. It doth not matter how I dress but why I am dressing. To make me happy. It does not matter where I go to college, so long as I am doing what I want to do for the rest of my life. Perhaps I should rephrase. It does matter, I just don't care about others negativity no matter how close you are to me. If one present their concerns in a decent matter, than I will apply a decent amount of time to mull over the quarry. If an opinion is thrown at me just as carelessly and harshly, well than you can go fly a kite.
In the end I do love my life and the people in it. Some just irritate me more than others. I do not care to put in energy and thought into something that is benefit-less. I want to enlighten myself. And if I think I can do that through spending, or time wasting than let me be, because I am obviously doing it for a reason. Even if it is "vanity" or "superficial" it makes me happy. It blinds me from the self doubt that wallows within me and eats at the marrow of my bones, making me weak, to weak to want to go on.
I entirely love everyone, at least I think I do, so do not tell me what I do do and do not do. I know my thoughts, I try my best and I hope for much. I pray for all, and even in regards to my enemies I feel great guilt trying to muster the courage to wish them ill. In this case I simply pray for understanding. I want love and life, I want experience and knowledge. That most certainly is not to say that I do not have my fair share. Do not undermine what people are capable of because you will not win in your prideful endeavors or ill wishes. Simply do as He did and love. Love those whom try and don't always succeed in the ways they wish. Love those whom are loud, because they rejoice in the ability to voice their spirits. Love those with strong will, for they wish to be understood, and if you will; accepted. Love even the most desperate, for they are searching in any way possible for what we search to in the most difficult of hiding spots.
Simply live, and you will find happiness in small things. Simply try and you will gain so much more than just experience. Simply care, because so many don't and it takes so much to have passion for something and make it your own.
Be

Ebay is a wonderland

So I am proud to say I used craigslist for selling needs instead of purchase needs, though I have not been contacted yet I am hopeful. After such events I felt so joyous that I just had to celebrate by buying a great assortment of jewelry off of Ebay. I am very excited. Most jewelry like what I purchased would have turned out to be a fortune, but thanks to cheap stores in Hong Kong I benefited greatly. So blogsters, this will probably be the shortest post I publish. Many thanks to you and your patient, and probably bored, eyes. Good night sleep tight and don't let the high prices of actual department stores get you. Dream of ebay, and all its glory.

Bore

So as the day ends I have come to realize, you can't do everything but you can strive to do many things.
There's this thing called procrastination, it to school is a crime and I am one of the worst offenders. I find that if i don't, as Nike says 'Just do it', than I probably won't so i'm making a goal, to wake up early and do some sort of work out even if its only like 5 sit ups. This will happen and I WILL have abs again. Its a goal that for some reason is terribly difficult to reach.
If you count it, ice skating was my rigorous activity today. Trying to show off, mixed with seeing old friends has made today a good day. I am trying to buckle down and get some scholarships, its harder than it looks. I mean really? 9 essays? and for what? A letter saying "Sorry we picked someone else". Ridiculous, so to cheer me up I purchased a hip new bag from one of my facorite exchange stores. Pibs!!!  The picture is large but whatevs. This is were I end today. Showing off my 4$ swag. So sleep tight and maybe i'll have something more interesting to talk about tomorrow. Bon Voyage, and yes I mean that; a dream is another adventure in which i wish you luck towards enjoying it. Night.

An intimate love story between a girl and her blogging expeditions

     Elegant (Cindy K.)
 Unexpected (Nicole L.)
Creative (Gemma R.)
Similar (Christina C.)
Relatable (Jenny O.)

So I was on one of my favorite website www.stumbleupon.com, searching through the Fashion category and stumbled (ha irony) upon these beauties. A pot of gold called himys.com. I began to look through  and immediately fell in love. This i've explained is my style, compiled into one sight. Eat your heart out boys and girls. (P.s. there are more I simply picked my favorites)

I like to stumble, don't judge

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/82esQz/www.verbal-vomit.com/2011/03/how-to-be-hipster-chapter-1.html/
The fate of such a person is unknown, and I always liked a little mystery. Plus i'm not pretending to be someone i'm not, though thats not to say i'm giving into someone else's perseption of me. I'm simply embracing what might be and showing off my flourishing self acceptance. I was once told in a very snob-ish tone "Well if you deny it than you obviously are a hipster, thats like rule of thumb #1", whatever that meant.
So don't judge, but at the same time for your personal benefit, do. Enjoy, embrace, enlighten.

Not just yet....

As it turns out my aspirations have changed, my opinions have changed, my delights have changed and so have my worries. I am a senior in high school, and sadly this occupation will come to an end. I will be off to college, working, studying, and as many if not all do, stressing. I am excited but at the same time....really scared. Is that wierd? Many are excited, already mentally done with school and its confining walls. Done with its patronizing teachers and ready to lead our beloved penitentiary. I guess as any frightened teenager with a great case of senioritis the only way to rectify or self medicate, if you will, is to leave high school with a BANG! Not a big scandalous one but one worth looking back on. So blogspot, expect to see more of me and my many shenanigans, scandals, discoveries, and trends. I'm not ready to grow up just yet!